Monday, May 23, 2011 
I'm tired.
I'm confused.
really I am.
I don't have the strength to continue walking down anymore.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I know I love you.
but it's not enough.
I don't know if I can _____ you again.
because once it's broken, you can hardly fixed it back.
I don't want anything anymore.
maybe really, that death is the only way.
maybe it's the only route out of it.
I don't know.
I don't know anything.
i don't want to know anything any more.
because the more I know,
the more upset I will be.
you are my all.
but...,
forget it. I don't know why things have become like this.
I don't.
maybe you're right.
it's my fault.
my fault that it became like this.
my fault that I cannot grow up.
my fault that I'm childish and immature.
my fault that I don't know how to think for others.
my fault that I cannot control my temper.
my fault that I anyhow throw my temper at people.
my fault that I give people attitude for nothing.
i understand now.
it's all my fault.
maybe things would be so much netter an you might be so much happier without me. I'm the jinx. I'm not welcomed anywhere, at anytime, and at any place.
Written off blah blah @ 6:14 PM.