Sunday, May 29, 2011 
This is fuck.
Cb.
I don't owe you anything Kay. Asshole.
If you not happy or what then go and die.
Seriously. If you not happy with something then jolly well fuck off and find a solution. Cb.
What? She can then I cannot is it? Fucker sia. You seriously very bias. I tell you what la. If tomorrow you don't allow. You will know what happen. Because I will also use my way to handle things. And if that happens. You cannot do anything to solve it. You are just not worth NY time and energy. Because you are no longer important. So however you feel towered certain things is not my problem. Bye asshole.
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Written off blah blah @ 10:47 PM. Saturday, May 28, 2011 i love the way things are now.
♥
because he has made me love him even more.
♥
i cannot describe how happy i am.
to be still with him.
♥
no words can be used to describe the way i am feeling now.
(:
hahhha(:
iloveyou baby ♥
Written off blah blah @ 12:51 PM. Wednesday, May 25, 2011 today school was pretty interesting...
i have slight headaches in the morning during mother tongue intensive programe.
then later on, it got a little better...
then later come afternoon...
[after recess ah]
my headache starts to come!
OMG!
i wanna die already eh...
headaches!
it's killing me...
barely made it through history lesson.
):
then english lesson, i barely can keep awake.
i slept ah.
hahha...
then i got a little better.
ONLY A LITTLE!
screw this headache devil.
):
then..., stayed for the mother tongue intensive programme until 4.30pm
after that, i went to dnt.
hmm...
guess what...
my dnt artefact was almost completing!
hahha(:
i'm so happy.
but i'm almost dead.
my head hurts like hell. ):
am seriously depressed! ):
*sighh~*
but it's worth my hardwork.
because come every hardwork i put in,
i gain something so very important.
(:
i think i enjoy doing dnt [but the practical ah]
hmm...
because i'm a very hands on type of a person.
so normally practical i don't have much problems!
(:
hahha(:
only dnt got a lot of problem.
hahhha!
*sigh~*
hmm... ouhkay then... think i'm going to go do my dnt already.
hahha!
i mean my dnt folio, the design journal :P
(:
i'm going to do the Development! (:
hahha(:
going to do half half (:
so i know what to write in (:
aren't i clever? (:
Written off blah blah @ 8:37 PM.Good Morning PEOPLE! (:
Princess is here to send people their morning wishes! Hahha(
Hopefully,
Today school will be good (:
(: so yeah. :D
Hmm...,
Ouhkay.
I'm going to stop here.
Because I'm going to prepare for SCHOOL!
God!
Hahha(:
I'm so looking forward to friday! (:
BREAKFAST WITH TEACHERS! (:
haha(:
Can't wait!!
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Written off blah blah @ 6:39 AM. Tuesday, May 24, 2011 i'm a little disappointed.
because everytime,
i tried to draw up a plan for some day.
the plan is always kept away.
and then i just have to go with it.
actually...,
to speak the truth,
i wasn't even interested.
really.
i didn't like it.
but then again...,
what can i do?
*sigh*
anw,
today was pretty fun.
the first thing i ate in the entire day was : ICE CREAM!
hahha(:
given by the school. as a reward.
because we got a milestone for our CCA. (:
hahha(:
THANK YOU MAN!
final year in the school and something special comes out.
*it's going to be a memorable year*
(:
ILOVEYOU♥
Written off blah blah @ 9:27 PM. Monday, May 23, 2011 I don't know.
I don't know anything anymore.
I have no confidence of walking down anywhere anymore.
I really felt like ending my life.
I'm not afraid of it.
maybe death is really a choice.
I don't know.
maybe you're right.
it's all my fault.
my fault that I'm stupid
my fault that I couldn't get the grades I want no matter how hard I study.
my fault that I give people attitude fr nothing.
my fault that I throw people temper anyhow.
my fault that things turned out this way.
my fault that I can't grow up.
my fault that I'm immature an childish.
my fault that I don't know how to spare a thought for others.
my fault that I have these kin of personality.
my fault that I dont know how to give in.
it's all my fault.
it really is.
maybe if these didn't happen in the first place,
things wouldn't turn out this way. and that you might be so much happier without me.
Written off blah blah @ 6:16 PM.I'm tired.
I'm confused.
really I am.
I don't have the strength to continue walking down anymore.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I know I love you.
but it's not enough.
I don't know if I can _____ you again.
because once it's broken, you can hardly fixed it back.
I don't want anything anymore.
maybe really, that death is the only way.
maybe it's the only route out of it.
I don't know.
I don't know anything.
i don't want to know anything any more.
because the more I know,
the more upset I will be.
you are my all.
but...,
forget it. I don't know why things have become like this.
I don't.
maybe you're right.
it's my fault.
my fault that it became like this.
my fault that I cannot grow up.
my fault that I'm childish and immature.
my fault that I don't know how to think for others.
my fault that I cannot control my temper.
my fault that I anyhow throw my temper at people.
my fault that I give people attitude for nothing.
i understand now.
it's all my fault.
maybe things would be so much netter an you might be so much happier without me. I'm the jinx. I'm not welcomed anywhere, at anytime, and at any place.
Written off blah blah @ 6:14 PM.i'm seriously confused.
i believed what you said.
but it didn't turn out the way you mentioned.
you were always right.
and i'm always in the wrong no matter what happens.
you can say such beautiful phrases that make me smile upon reading it.
but little did i know that underneath all that was actually a lie.
the names you called me, made me feel like i'm at the top of the world.
like i'm the luckiest person one earth.
but i didn't know...,
that it was all only in my head.
you know...,
i wish, you would actually come clean to me.
and despite saying it to you,
you either really didn't know, or you're just acting to cover it up.
i loved you so much.
i believed whatever you said.
but then you, ... [i seriously don't know what to say anymore.]
you can be the one saying that i did not do this, that, this, that.
but you? you actually did what you said.
whatever it is...
i don't want to know anymore.
i don't want to know the details.
because i saw it with my own eyes.
and i trust what it says.
and what i saw, was that you lied.
i don't know what to say anymore.
really.
and no matter what happens, the first thing you'll ask is 'what did you do AGAIN'.
why?
so to you, i'm nothing more than a trouble maker?
it that what it is now?
the first thing you'd ask was that.
has it never crossed your mind, that i'm not the one who did something wrong?
i guess you did not.
to you, i guess, i'm the only one that would make trouble for others.
making them to nag and scold me.
then later i would complain and say that they scold me for nothing.
i guess to you,
i'm that kind of person.
nvm then.
i don't want anything.
i don't want to expect anything from you again.
because when you did that...
i'm hurt.
i love you, but you ....
it's alright i guess.
you say you wanna die for me to see.
die then...
if you want to.
to me, death isn't scary.
i've been planning for it already.
it might happen...
by next year...
maybe, maybe not.
i don't know what you want...
but maybe it's best if i don't expect you to do anything for me, and i don't get my hopes high...
maybe only then we won't quarrel.
just forget it..
all my fault.
my fault that i cannot meet your expectations.
my fault that i keep quiet about things.
my fault that i did not do this and that.
all my fault kay?
i woke up today, trying to figure out why you did that.
until i remember what you wrote.
then i realize that you couldn't let go.
you wouldn't forget no matter.
don't tell me that it was a misunderstanding.
because i saw what you wrote.
and it was the same as how you called me.
so how am i to believe that it was a typo or something you wrote accidentally?
this is the reason why i say,
you know only how to say me.
then i'm asking you here.
what about you?
Written off blah blah @ 5:34 PM. Sunday, May 22, 2011 ---blog updates start---
with new blog skin. (:
ilovemynewblogskin!
:D
---blog updates end---
alright.
new blog skin.
(:
i love my new blog design.
hahha..
have created another blog.
which means...,
i have 3 blogs in total. (:
and all three have been newly decorated.
(:
with new post and design.
so loving it.
just a pity...
that my mood doesn't really match with the themes of my blogs.
well, except the 3rd one.
hmm...
but anyway, am not feeling any better now as compared to the morning and before.
am still feeling so ... dead and upset and all.
*sigh*
i don't know what to say anymore...
it's like i cannot just close my eyes and ignore things.
but i just want to...
-.-
the world isn't mine.
my world was destroyed...
a long long time ago.
and now, i'm in another one.
but it doesn't belong to me.
*sigh*
anyhow, i wanna go post on my 3rd blog already.
so yeah...
gonna end here.
cyaz :3
Written off blah blah @ 5:51 PM. Saturday, May 21, 2011 /: /: /: /: /:
I'm so damn fucking bored.
It's so peaceful.
It felt peaceful to me.
Then where is my peace?
): I'm not feeling it. ):
I'm voted... The most boring person.
/: ahhhh...
Forget it luh.
No fucking things that will happen will change the damned fact.
I give up.
Because ..., to me, nothing is the same again.
Things changed.
Times changed.
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Location:Tampines Street 33,,Singapore
Written off blah blah @ 10:13 PM.
+ or -
It's the same.
Hmm..., well.
Nvm(:
Hahhahhahahahahhahahahha(:
I'm nuts. ):
Who am I kidding..?
-.-
My artwork. I'm so bored! ( this is the completed one. )
( this is the half completed one. Hahha)
Life is so freaking bored.
I'm so tired.
I just wanna sleep forever.
Forever and ever and ever.
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Written off blah blah @ 7:22 PM.[♥] i'm so happy today! :DD
hahha(:
i woke up, so early in the morning...
COUGHING! ): HAHHA!
god damn-it!
hahha... my cough's getting worse by the day.
):
i've been coughing till my head hurt so bad. ):
*sigh*
then i check my phone..
saw baby's[♥] text...
i replied him...
then guess what?!
i sent him 24 messages...
which means it's 3000 over letters.
hahha!
i'm so damn pro.
(:
after that SUPER SUPER DUPER LONG text, i sent him another 4 messages.
which is about 300-400 over letters. (:
hahha(:
after that, the 3rd text i sent him was only 1. less than a 150 letters. :D
hahha(:
i couldn't sleep. ):
though i had rested, but, sleep, is definitely not enough.
but then again, i have to get used to it. ):
this year has been a super bad year for me so far.
have been getting sick so often.
but then again, it's not going to stop me for not studying and revising.
!! it's not a excuse for me.
i need to continue studying hard, and do more and more revision each day.
despite the fact that i'm sick.
i have to do it.
i doubt seeing a doctor will help...
hence, not going to visit a doctor anytime soon.
hmm...,
oh yeah.
my resolution!
i'm going to study around 7-8 hours a day after school, when i reach home.
and well, that means..., i will end my study time at around 11-12 each day.
and when i;m studying, hopefully, i will not get distracted.
hmm...,
and what else...?
hold on... hahha(: got a text! [♥]
from babyy[♥] :D
~2 minutes later~
oh yeah!
babyy[♥] says he wanna buy a car.
hahha:P
if he's gonna drive, i think i won't want to sit in his car. :P
hahha(: just joking!
he's my driver! :PP
right baby? [if, you're reading this.]
and if your korkor drive car, will you sit in his car ? [to christina mei]
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and if, god is reading this, i would very much, like to make a few wishes.
i wish that people around the world would be happy and peaceful all the times.
i wish that people in the less developed countries would have a better facilities for them to live in, to have a cleaner water source to drink from.
i wish that the people i loved, would have a better and more peaceful life to live in comfort.
and lastly, i wish that my health would improve, even if it's a little.
if god, you would grant me my wishes, or maybe just one, i would be very grateful.
thank you God.
[♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥][♥]
iloveyou[♥] Joseph babyy[♥]
christina mei[♥]
MY SHOES! [♥]
Written off blah blah @ 5:29 PM. Tuesday, May 17, 2011 :D :D I love today. (: super love today (:
(: I went to joseph's house. Well. I mean near his house ah. (: hahha(: I went there to meet him. Then we went to eat at a place near his house. Like just opposite. Hahha(: he ordered masala tosay or what ah. I don't know how to spell ah. Hahha(: then after, we went to tampines interchange. We went to T1. Hahha(: buy something for my sister. Then after met Gab. (: we went to century square basement to have our lunch. Below are some pictures. (: I've taken or rather Joseph and taken for today. .
Below are the photos that I've taken from last time ah. (: hahha(:
I was taking the sky while he put his head in. -.-
Joseph is thinking that he is sir Stanford Raffles. -.-
Joseph feeding my babe stitch Mac fries.
Hehhe(: my baby stitch wanna take revenge on Joseph! :D
Hahha(: Joseph wanna feed me fries, but yeah..., I took a snap shot already. Hahha(:
Again... He wanna feed me fries. But then again, I managed to take a snapshot first!
Joseph is giving me a pose AT NY HOUSE! after our trip for a jog with Christina. Hahha(:
I don't know where's is he looking at. -.-
And below are photos of Joseph sleeping ON MY LAP AT THE AIRPORT! so no class. :P
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Written off blah blah @ 10:25 PM.Hmm... This is weird. Hahha(:
I was thinking of a day out.
A quiet day out. But instead. It became a noisy one. It just simply means that my friends, or rather our friends have came to join us. Hahha(:
which I don't really mind ah. (: after all..., I wouldn't be bored would I ?! (:
Enjoy (:
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Location:Tampines Street 33,,Singapore
Written off blah blah @ 1:30 PM.Heyy(: GOOD MORNINGGGGG!
I had a wonderful breakfast. (: hahha(:
I'm so very full now. I don't think I can eat another thing again. Seriously! Hahha(: hmm...,
Food Food!! Hahha(: but obviously is not the food I eat today morning ah! Hahha(:
Ouhkayouhkay. It ends here.
Damn bloody irritating! Big fuck ah. Cb. Know I standing there. She fucking hell go push the bed and the bed brushed against my leg. Cb. Not one time only hor. Bastard. cb. Then my leg/feet skin got tore off cb. damn pain can. Fucker. See what I'm going to do to her. Asshole.
Ouhkay. That ends here too.
I'm sorry for what I posted last night. ): I guess i was too tired. And someone pisses me off. So that explains the situation. ): hahha(: yesterday, I also flared up at Joseph. Hahha(: I mean I literally scolded him or I just threw my temper at him. And then later..., I was like ..... 'DAMN-ED! I just did it again. He didn't do anything wrong. Neither has he done anything to make me angry or upset. damned! I'm wrong.' ): I immediately text him. I asked for his forgiveness. Hahha. But to my surprise, He wasn't even upset. And neither is he mad at me. !! I just couldn't believe it you know. !!!!!! Then yeah. As usual, I dozed off. Hahha....
So, we were peaceful again. (: like the picture. (:
And I love it. ♥♥
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Location:Tampines Street 33,,Singapore
Written off blah blah @ 9:40 AM. Monday, May 16, 2011 it's like DAMN IRRITATING!
i hate it!
FUCK ONE AH.
有时候你可以用用你那所谓的头脑来想事情吗？那上帝给你一个健全的身体来干嘛的？
你有头脑，但是，你并没有用它。你都没有好好利用上帝此给你的那健全的身体以及器官， 那给你很把它丢掉有什么差别？
你以为现在很以前一样时吗？那你真的是没用你的头脑。一天到晚只懂得算钱，或和钱有关的， 你都很感兴趣。你的头脑只装的下有关于 钱 的东西以及事物。
算了， 和你这种人计较简直是浪费我的时间和白费力气而已。
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Location:Tampines Street 33,,Singapore
Written off blah blah @ 11:48 PM.:D hey people!
(: I'm back to post! Again!! Hhahha(:
Hope school is fun for you guys...
But then... For me...
School's bored for me! Hahha(: I'll post something.
This is how bored am I... D:
I'm looking forward to school. But then, school is super bored now! ):
Hahha(: but then again! I love my this blog! Hahha(: i enjoy this blog a Lot ah! (: hahha(:
If I'm bored or what..., or maybe just want to listen song. All I need is just to go to my blog! Hahha(: the songs. (: are so nice. Hahha(: I can just go to my blog and stay there the entire day. (: just to listen to the songs that I've chosen. (:
Hahha(: and I wanna post some pictures. Of games that I've played with Joseph a few days back. (: hahha(: IT'S A TOUGH FIGHT!
Hahha(: as you can see, the scores and everything. It's really really close at the top. Hahha(: but then, when it's nearing the end, I got so much lesser marks as compared to Joseph. ): hahha(: but then, I'm the winner. Because he quit. (: hahha(: it really is a tough fight. (: hahha(: loved it. Hope we can play it again soon. (:
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Location:Tampines Street 33,,Singapore
Written off blah blah @ 7:08 PM. Sunday, May 15, 2011 Good Morning people! Hope you all did have a good night's rest! (: today, I woke up pretty early!! Hahaha(: I woke up so early to prepare my bag! For the swimming session later on in the morning. (: !! Hahhaha(: I can't wait already! (: after on, I am going to meet Stephanie. Then later on, we're suppose to go to the store. To meet Joseph and kero and some other people. (: hahaha( I really can't wait!! (:
But then..., there's a change of plans. ): I can't go. ): my mum don't allow! ): I'm upset can?! Originally, we are all suppose to eat lunch together. But then..., now it's not possible anymore! ): I wanna meet Joseph. ): but it seems that I can't anymore. ): so, after the swimming session, we all went straight home. ): then? We all rot at home... Actually, I'm the only one who rotted at home. ): arghhh... Nvm then. I shall post till here right now. If later on, anythings happens, I shall update again. So not to worry. (:
Bye people! (:
XOXO
samantha♥ from my iPhone.
Location:Tampines Street 33,,Singapore
Written off blah blah @ 5:12 PM.